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MS isn't always the worst of the bad things...

This is my week in a nut shell: It's Spring Break (yes, we didn't get enough days out of school this year:) and my family normally spends a few days at our home away from home...Bemis, the Center of the Universe. This year, how ever, I get to stay home for most of the week, entertaining doctors. For some time, I have suffered weird chest pains that was orginially diagnosed as some kind of chest inflammation that required 3 daily doses of high power Motrin. It helped for a while but after several months I became nervous about the amount of Motrin that my body was ingesting...and the pain was not going away. So...I took my concerns back to the physician who has now decided that a pain pill (when needed) is more the ticket, in addition to a muscle relaxant at bed time. It's done wonders, but a further precaution is the heart monitor that I am wearing for the next 24 hours. My heart rate is (I guess) alarmingly low, (Isn't that a good thing?) so I have been referred to a c…

Let's get positive!

Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace
English Quotes: http://goo.gl/udl654

So, last week I devoted any postings to negativity, and I kindof forgot to let go yesterday as I continued my venting about the unfairness of MS. I titles my post WHY? and I wish I had given this more thought.

Who am I to question my life and all that it holds? I love my life. If I am supposed to have an incurable disease, I guess that's just how it is. No, I don't necessarily like it; but, it is what it is.

I also do not like that I have married three times and that I will be sixty years old when my only  child graduates from high school.

But, guess what? There is a reason for all this. I am now married to the most wonderful person I could ever ask for. He supports me and looks after my needs. He is a wonderful father and protective husband. I wish I was a younger mother, but I really believe that God saved this experience for me whedn I needed it most. The birth of my son pretty m…

Why?

I awoke in the middle of the night, thinking about my MS and how it has affected my life and the lives of those around me. I really believe that the effects of this disease began long before I was aware of its existence. The tingling in my fingers and arms when I learned to play raquet ball in college and even prior to that when I used to fool around with tennis. Those many times when I inexplicably fell with no warning or dropped items without any knowledge of letting go until the damage was done. The experiences with memory loss that were in no way hrelated to late night beer bashes. These were all red flags begging for attention. I just had no idea what kind of attention to offer.

During my latest research I found that an estimated 1 in 3 children are diagnosed with MS symptoms. Does that mean that I might have been carting around this inconvenient condition for much longer than I coul guess. I reallyh do believe that my hand numbness and aversion to heat might have been early MS i…

Just too depressed for words!.

MS Apparel ON SALE! mywalkgear.com Get this MS Awareness shirt ON SALE today! This March, think orange for MS. Limited offer! 35,735 people like this. I really wanted to post earlier, but I just could not fight through my tears long enough to put anything down on paper. A dear friend, wheelchair bound, missed an important day in her son's life yesterday. He was inducted into the National Honor Society at his school. This is a big honor and one that looks great on a college application. Her pride in him stole my heart; even more so becuase she was unable to attend the ceremony in order to witness her baby receive this award. MS took this aware from her. I certainly hope that he knows how much his mother wanted to be there. I also hope this week of negativity ends soon. I reallyh believed a week devoted to venting about the suckiness of MS would be therapeutic. Instead, it has just brought me down. It has helped me not to feel sorry for myself, though. I have looked at my disease d…
There are so many reasons why MS sucks, and I could go on forever beging negative; but that's just not my thing. Negativity can do more harm than good in the events of life. If we constantly think that the world is out to  get us, then there is no convincing our pre-programmed mind that this is the truth.

A dear, dear lady with whom I have had the opportunity to become  reacquainted, saddens me with every conversation. She is miserable in her job. She cannot stand her boss. None of her co-workers talk to her anymore; presumably because they have gone "to the other side".  She is so loaded down with all fo this negativity that there is  no bright side for her any longer.

She has a lovely family and is married to her high school sweetheart. Her life is filled with blessings.

I do not understand her discontent; and if her professional life is so miserable, she needs to make adjustments. She can suck it in and make the best of it, even if it requires some creative acting. Sh…